ruling until some day. DAY 21 [OC, brainmade*]

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digital drawing. large line going from top left to bottom right in a wave-like way. along the line are days and dates noted with orange. the background is a greyish beige. the things listed are: July 6th queer meetup canceled, July 10th daily posts begin, July 19th West Side Story, July 20th Phantasia Land, July 21st shared big thing. positive!, July 27th grandma appears, July 30th blood draw, August 1st grandma leaves, August 6th is highlighted with a large bright star and lines radiating from it with text on it "...meetup.", August 7th kinda therapy, from August 16th to 18th there is a drawing of a bench and chairs and grass below with text "garden meetup when?" and questoin marks around each day, August 19th end of daily posts?. there is also some light grey text all over the "calendar" saying the following: weighing ... pondering ... thinking ... focussing ... preparing ... floating. botom right says "by maria on lemmy". there are orange dots on July 20th, 21st and 30th. what they mean is unclear

always seeking the next light. overthinking what might happen, wishing for the best but only believing the most mediocre and worst. it doesn’t have to be bad, does it?

catbox is broken again. so u gotta live with a terrible quality blahaj zone image for now, sorry.

</strong>* brainmade note:

  • the colors used in this post are inspired by some company. be the first one to guess which one and u get a virtual hug as prize (or not if u don’t wanna, but i will acknowledge you as the winner… unless that makes you uncomfy, in which case… i won’t do anything)

    • tip: some of the content is a pretty clear give away. maybe put your guess into a spoiler.

  • everything in the post is obviously human made and such. look at all these mistakes i made!

i didn’t post the last two days. OH NO. i need to catch up. this is day 21 and day 22 i still have to make! oh nooooo >o< what am i gonna do?

this one i made with passion but i don’t wanna miss a post but i’m already a day behind!!!! what do i dooooo?!?!!? >O< aaaaaaaaa

okay listen. its currently… 01:05 AM alright? i need to sleep and i want to sleep. so i will sleep, for my own health and for the posts quality.

i won’t force out yesterdays (day 22) post now, that feels wrong. i’d rather post late than bad and i hope you agree.

i wish you have a wonderful day and i want you to not be so hard on yourself, okay? <3

EDIT: changed alt text to include white figure walking toward meetup day. yes, i write alt texts, have a look at them! on desktop, try hovering over the image. with Lemmy UI, that’s how you view it.

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we’re half way through? 🥺

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probably yes, a but over it in fact.

all things have to end someday. I said that I would do this until “somewhere in august” and I said that I’d stop once we had the garden meetup noted in the calendar here. so yes, this is essentially a copy of my literal calendar.

I asked the two peeps just now if they got the presentation dates so they know when they got time. no response yet, but I can wait. they’ll respond when they got time to.

posts won’t end forever obviously, but daily posts are actually not nothing, surprisingly. like - who could have guessed? i couldn’t have!

for now, im just looking forward to that meeting on August 6th.

EDIT: removed unnecessary babbling.

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I’ll enjoy the posts we have left <3

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but they will all be STORM POSTS!!!! >o< aaaaaaaaa get ready!!!! ;((((((

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I’ll appreciate whatever you give us :)

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okay this one is so painfully straight forward that the next one has to be more abstract again.

no more dumping my CoT and more putting feelings into drawings is what i feel is needed.

(CoT is short for Chain-of-Thought… don’t click that link)

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I don’t always comment on your posts, but I see them every day and they always make my day a little better 🥰

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awwww it’s really nice to hear you enjoy them <3

i say this a lot, but it really does mean a lot to me.

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You deleted yesterday’s post? Now we won’t know what you sacrificed blood for!

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whaaaat? no! I didnt delete yesterdays post, day 20 is still just as “up there” as it was when I first posted it.

i gave blood so the vampires check my E levels and glucose and such. it went really cleanly, didnt hurt much. it was fine but i still sleptbthe rest of the day from being exhausted from fearing about it.

nothins deleted. its aaaaalll part of the history.

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Presumably this is

Tap for spoiler

Claude/Anthropic

The words on the timeline seem related to the words it uses while it does CoT processing

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horray!!!! you are the first one to get the source of the colors right!

comes closer to you

okay so.. you didn’t say anything about not wanting to be hugged sooo i will read that as consent… you read the terms and conditions!!!!

hugs you 🫂 a bit deeper and longer than expected. a good 16 second deep hug.

you did really well. i thought no one would get it right.

backs off a bit

i wish you a wonderful day ~

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