Eid al-Adha is in a few days. Two years ago, I could afford a goat for qurban. I could even afford that along with therapy, meds, food, and bills. Now I don’t know if I’ll even be able to eat next week while also making sure I still have enough left for mutual aid.But I have a roof over my head and I’m smart and resourceful, so people keep telling me to be grateful, that I should stop being selfish and manipulative, and that I should stop begging.I 𝘢𝘮 grateful for the roof over my head, which I was able to pay the yearly rent for thanks to mutual aid. Poverty and disability don’t reflect my character or intelligence. How is something finite like money or usefulness a measure of someone’s morals and worth?It’s my finances and physical health that are experiencing bankruptcy and deterioration, not my morality or dignity. And clearly, they only measure productivity and someone's humanity and worth by profit, credit scores, net worth—and market demand, which ironically does want my skills and experiences, just not me as a whole person. I’m still productive. I am way more productive now than I ever was as a cog in a capitalist death machine. I’m just not useful or usable for corporations anymore.Perhaps those who keep telling me to be grateful and to stop being a beggar and a manipulative bitch can also contribute to mutual aid? How does the saying go? “Put your money where your mouth is”?